Archive for May, 2008

Little Black Bird.

Some months ago I found a little black bird in our shed.. somehow it flew in there and was stuck.
One wing was injured.. I think the bird had a rough time with our neighbours cat..
So I gave it food and tried my best to heal that wing..
I thought it was amazing that after a while the bird wasn’t scared of me.
After a little bit more than a week the bird could use his wings properly again and I let it fly away..
Since that day I threw everyday some bread in our yard.. mainly for that bird if it would ever come back..
So I did that same thing today while I was eating breakfast in our yard and one little black bird came and ate the bread…
I threw the bread closer and closer to me, the bird kept comming closer and closer..
The bird wasn’t scared.. almost as it was used to that bread, our yard and used to me..
Once I held the bird in my hands I knew it was the same bird I found in our shed some months ago..
I think it’s pretty cool how animals can get used to people and be their friends..
And if I could choose what animal I’d want to be..
It would definitely be a bird, one free bird..
Spreading my wings and flying to wherever my wings would bring me.
Something we truly can call freedom.

Tien ♥.


Nadsat talk

Well, well, well, viddy real horrorshow, O brothers. Appypolly loggy  for all the chepooka, for Your Humble Narrator is loveted in nadsat language and stand back! for Im going bezoomy with choodesny news! My litso is all over the gazetta with reviews on our sladky sladky sladky circus show.

That, my droogies, is none other than my chellovek Shane in his interpretation of Master of Doom! ho ho ho guff your gullivers off! The malchik is a clown. On the background you can viddy real horrowshow Your Humble Narrator, making a nazz of herself. Sarky sarky sarky lewdies, ’tis was zammechat.

Have a real dobby picture of Dave Vanian to finish this cal off.

Horrorshow voloss and goloss! Love The Damned, O my brothers!

It’s nochy, lewdies, I leave you to your Oozhassny consciense.



Shopping with Christina Aguilera!!

Okay, okay.. I didn’t REALLY went shopping with Christina Aguilera…
BUT.. I do like some of her music.. just HAD to be said.
I know she’s not deathrock or punk or whatever.. but guess what.. I don’t care.
After her song ‘beautiful’ I just really started liking her and I still think that the videoclip of that song is like the best videoclip I’ve ever seen.. it just shows the world how it is nowdays.. people don’t really want to know you if you are a little bit weird, vague, strange, own-stylish.. the video shows transvestites, gays, punks/deathrockers, people that find them self ugly.. I never really believed in a thing called ‘beauty’ because I think every single being is beautiful on their own way and will stay beautiful like that forever, that beauty is endless.. so basically there is no need in making fun of someone.. if you are attracted to that person or if you are not is just your own thing. so, with Christina Aguilera playing on my ipod I went to the mall, I had to buy some food for dinner.. I know VERY interesting.
This is how our mall looks.. it is quite boring though…

So, after dinner.. I made a drawing, because I was pretty bored..
This is what I made.. not too fancy though…

After that.. I decided to go and take more pictures!..
So I’ve did that with a friend.. here they are:
My hometown :-)

The main road..

The church.. don’t mind the clock it is ALWAYS that time on that church..
I took these pictures at 8PM.. People are lazy to fix it.. I guess?..

Just a random street I like..

Some kids playing football/soccer.. whatever? on a field.. and that building is actually the biggest one we have in this town.. =P.

99 Luftballons auf ihrem Weg zum Horizont!
Well… this was just 1.. sooo 98 to go!

I used to play in this garden alot when I was a child :-)
Good times.. I know we made a hut there.. it was actually an illegal area.. because it is the garden from an office.. but I still like the lake, it’s heart shaped.

Some park for dogs

I did took the pic of that bunny.. there were actually three of them first.. but the other two ran away..
I guess that bunnies don’t really like me… :-(

Tien ♥.

Old Cookies

I was sitting in the bus today, doing my usual thing: listening to a mix of Soft Cell, NMA and The Chameleons, my head thinking of the book Im currently reading (it’s called We by Zamyatin, Yevgeny, go get it!) when I see a very old lady trying to fix her hair in a frantic. I supressed a laugh, since her calics obviously were not going to behave. Her hair was completely gray and regretful of years of damage and neglect. She was wearing two sets of glasses. One for reading, and the other to protect her ancient eyes of the sun. Her mouth did small spasms as she realized the hair battle was lost.

Then…she did something that made my day. She reached for her purse, took out a white tissue, neatly unfolded it, and revealed 3 cookies. Slowly, she turned to the little girl next to her, smiled, and offered her one.  Then she gave the other one to the girl’s mother, and the last one to a really tough looking guy sitting in front of her, who refused it for mere image.

Who doesnt want a cookie? Seriously.

Anyway, it just made me smile the way her eyes lit up when the little girl ate her cookie, and how nothing else in the world mattered to her, not the calic, not the multiple glasses, nothing but to make a couple people around her happy.


Serial killers, new adictions and flying carpets.

I cannot believe how people can have such amazingly weird brain twists.. that it’s almost extremely crazy to think about such things.. anyway.. here we gooooooooooo:  
Yesterday I was watching this ducumentairy on Discovery Channel it was about cannibalism and doing EVERYTHING possible to get what you need.. or what you THINK you need. Now starts my story about this young lad named Armin Meiwes born in Germany 1961, His life was more lived by his mother then it was by him.. when he was a little boy she let him wear outfits that boys used to wear in the 20’s:

 And she makes him do all these aweful chores, she also controls his life, example she goes with him whenever he has a date with a girl. At a young age Armin Meiwes playes with dolls and pulls them apart and then, then he roasts them till they all melt away.. And then he became interessted in eating people.. As he grows up he still has that interesst and when his mother dies at the age of 30+ he becomes completely free.. then he becomes an internet addict and post adverts that he is looking for people (boys which who he can have sex and eat them after) that want to be eaten by him. In a chatroom he meets Bernd Brandes and he, he wants to be eaten by him. So when they finally meet they first try both to eat Brandes Penis but that was kind of imposibble because the meat was too raw, also cooking it didn’t help. Brandes was already too weakened from blood loss to actually eat any of his penis..  Meiwes apparently gave him large quantities alcohol, 30 sleeping pills, painkillers and he kissed him once and killed him in a room that he had built in his house for this purpose.. After stabbing Brandes to death in the throat he hung the body on a meathook and tore hunks of flesh from it; he even tried to grind the bones to use as flour.  Meiwes ate the body over the next 10 months, storing body parts in his freezer.. it was 20kg of flesh. Meiwes was arrested in December 2002, after a man called the police after seeing new advertisements for victims and details about the killing on the Internet. Investigators searched his home and found body parts and the videotaped killing. (He recorded everything)
This is just one example of what that documentary showed, they also showed people drinking blood.. but the main thing was they all thought in a way to be vampires..

I CANNOT belive.. that this actually is a true story, I really cannot believe.. And like Antony would sing (Antony & The Johnsons) It’s hard to believe that he is a child of God.
Well, New Adictions..
That would be labello, they are soooo cute and I already own tons of them in many colors! *woo* 

And after watching Aladdin, I actually have some things I really want.. which are:
– A magic carpet –
– To free the Genie –
– A hug from a tiger –
– 3Wishes –
– To mary my princess Jasmine –
– A monkey and a talking parot.. –
So.. If you have any of those things:

Tien. ♥

It’s just the beggining!

Hello, hello!

Since Im not gifted in the html department as Tien, this post wont be as colorful and flashy as hers ;p
What to say? I suffer from Peter Pan complex aswell! And I also happen to be a:
INFP – “Questor”. High capacity for caring. Emotional face to the world. High sense of honor derived from internal values. 4.4% of total population.
I think that and Tien’s, sums up the reason for us creating this blog. We care, we believe and we’ll always be ourselves.
I came to this world in July 28, 1989, and I probably did a forward roll out of my mom!
Im a circus artist in training. My goal is to be able to remind people what it is like to dream ^^
To me, the human race is divided in two: Artists, and the rest.  
Humans forget so easily their ability to be amazed, to imagine, to remember what it was like to believe everything was possible and when facts were silly. As they reach that point, they become jaded and cynical, mere machines…color bars. Artists on the other hand, are still alive, the only untainted humans left, striving to wake the others up.

Anyway, c’est moi!
My hair’s currently purple though ;>

Tien and I kinda live in our own little world…And this blog will show peaks on how it is to live there
So…it starts now! :D

First post and alot of pages.

So here it is, the first post in this brand new blog by Lain and myself.

Let’s start with a tiny part about me.. =)
The world shouted ‘IT’S A GIRL on April the 19th 1989 at 4AM.
You can call me Tien or Tina, most people do now..
I am 19, I don’t feel 19, I don’t really feel like a number at all and I don’t know how you are suposed to act when you are 19.. And well.. I kind of do have a Peter Pan complex..

But basically I just try to do what I think that is a right thing to do.. like everybody else does I guess. I’m a nature person and I’d rather spend my days dancing through the trees in the forest.
 The cherryblossom tree or also known as Sakura-tree would be my favourite out of them all. I am a thinker, a philosopher, a dreamer, a writer, a reader, a musician and an artist. I play the piano for quite a long time and I used to play the guitar aswell.. I’m catching up my guitar-skills now *woo* . I love to read nice written poetry and good books. I got a new book today called ‘The Alchemist’ by Paulo Coelho. Lain told me a while ago to read that book but I was reading a 1184 pages long book then which I just finished.. The Alchemist has 140pages so I think I’ll finish that one soon.. I’ll tell you what I thought about it Lain!. =)
Anyway, music.. a well spoken subject in most of peoples lifes, I like oldies 70s-80s stuff.. PostPunk, Deathrock, Batcave, Goth, Oi!, Punk, Noise and eveything like that.. With Punk I do not mean emo-bands, I don’t like emo music!..
And this.. this would be me.

That’s all.. for now.
Tien ♥.