Posts Tagged ‘Lain’

Concerning Humans.

Always being hungry to reduce others just to feel tremendous for that moment,
Not caring that those others need a huge amount of time to feel good, good not great about them selves again.
Having prejudgements and putting people in small boxes, something I can understand.. with which other things do they have to reveal with then?.
Yet I have made the decision quite alot of years ago; not wanting to be like that.
There just has to be more to life than admiring Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt, who both just chased down temporary dreams..
Because there’s gotta be more than even that.
Also than chasing them down to capture every moment of their life and feeling satisfied for the picture you have of her picking her nose.
It’s not about Angelina, Brad or whoever it’s about you..
As we go through life we’ll see that there is so much that we don’t understand.
Things that can contain life questions, lovelife issues and depressive moments..
Yet the things we do know is that things don’t always go the way we planned.
People often think that they do not deserve the good or the bad things in life.
There are so much expectations, so much we must be that we forget how to be.. we.
Forgetting trusting your own heart instead of trying to be a part of some big plan others expect you to join.
Everybody wants to be liked, to be found nice and pretty, to be around people that have something in common with them…
So the question is not to be or not to be but why trying so hard to bring others down..
Your neighbour, that kid with those glasses, the girl with a size plus or the next hollywood celebrity.
Does it really matter?

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I’ve had this on my mind for a pretty long time and I finally managed to write it all down.
Something I will share with you.
Just think about it, You can be happy without that all.

Tien.

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Road/Backpack Europtrip’08.

First of all before I start my real story I want to mention that I only am writing this blog for Lain and a little bit for myself as a memory. Lain asked me to take alot of pictures.. I have took alot of pictures of the views we had.. the pictures where I am on are mostly weird and crappy.. The ones I like.. are pictures taken of my back, I looked horrible and exhausted and honestly I mostly even didn’t tried to look well enough for pictures. The pictures I am posting here are the ones I think that they are okay, that they can go through.. the ones I am not posting are just odd pictures of me doing things.. And also I am not posting pictures of the two guys that went with me because that’s pretty personal for them. I will try not to post a long blog.

EuroTrip 2008.

The past month I have spent in 20 awesome countries in Europe, we didn’t stayed in them all because there was just not enough time to explore them all and meet people in every country. Our plans have changed alot, the first pland was flying out to vencia in Italy and just walking around with a hudge backpack there..At the last moment we cancelled our flight and decided to go by car.. it would cost a little bit more money but then we knew for sure that we would get back at the right time. Some countries I liked better than others and in some it was just impossible to make clear to the people there what you wanted.. for the simple reason of that they don’t speak english.. or just a little bit.. In those ones.. we had to talk with our hand and feet and legs and arms and just really weird things.. I am a girl who was confused about the most of the things in life and I tried to find myself in every possible way.. I used to live life with Peter Pan and The Easter Bunny in my head and trying to know alot of knowledge and wisdom about the things I probably would never need in life.. And Kind of I am still like that.. but my view on life and people and alot of different things has changed alot and I am not that confused anymore about certain questions. Although this trip was very exhausting.. and we didn’t slept much, we basically followed the rainclouds and each time it was really hard to find a place to stay because we didn’t went to big cities.. that was a choice we made.. there’s always time to visit the big cities but you never get to see how people REALLY live and how life goes in little places..
So anyway, if we were lucky we slept in huts and if we were really lucky we could sleep in houses.. there were no hotels and if by chance we did found one.. we still didn’t want to spend the night there.. then we just took the risk of sleeping outside or in the car if we didn’t left it somewhere to go on walking. As to me I speak Dutch, English, German, Croatian, Some Japanese, Some Spanish and Some French, Chris speaks them all very well just leaving out Croatian and Japanese and Benjamin his English and German is great.. So basically we managed it. Food.. that depended on if we could find any stores.. and when we found them.. we could spent just each €5,- on food since we were by car we had to buy gass aswell.. lucky it was a diesel car so we spent like €150,- on 1600KM.. Also we had to buy vignettes in some countries because only with a vignette you can go through that country and some of those were also pretty expensive. So.. that’s it.. kind of.. a blog without personal details. I’ll tell you about it more Lian.. I just feel like.. I have wrote already way too much =P.
And if I could do it again I would definaitly go because this time I had my doubts but I did go and I was with the people that matter and the people I love alot.

Some pictures I like & think they’re well enough to post:

Hut where we stayed because it rained alot.. it’s the back of it actually I didn’t like the front that much.

My back again =P.. sorry.

Those stairs were pretty unstable.

Really cute house where we spent two nights.

TIEN ♥.

You are special!


Look at you.
Look at how beautiful and special YOU are.
With your eyes you are able to see the beauty on this planet we call home, we call earth.
The trees, the flowers, the stars and the moon.. it does not matter whether your eyes are dark or light, they are beautiful.
With your ears you are able to hear, to listen to all these amazing noises.
The beat of your heart, the reach or your arms, the blood in your entire body is one amazing wonder.
Look at your hands, the five fingers you have on one, five because you don’t need more each one serves you well and there’s no need for a sixt finger.
There is something as perfection, You are.
The way your body recovers, the way your hair grows, the way you once were tiny and grew to that what you are now is amazing.
It doesn’t matter if you’re small, big, tall, tiny, bald, hairy, white or black you are beautiful infor who you are.
The way you are never alone, you always have your mind, your thoughts which can make you paint with the wind, fly with the birds and dream the most impossible dreams.
Look at you.
This amazing beautiful wonder that you are, you are beautiful now and you always will be.

I’ve been thinking alot lately, well that’s not really something new.. I’m a thinker.
I think that it’s really amazing that there are so much people on this world who all day in and day out do their thing.
So much people I never have seen their faces, never heard the sound of their voice but they do exist.
Walking on the streets and seeing all those different amazing people they all look so familiar..
like you know them, all of them and yet never ever have seen them before.
The earth is big and yet small at the same time.
I’ve been watching football, it’s The Eurocup 2008 over here and The Netherlands are really doing great.. I hope they’ll win the cup.
And the weather is nice outside.. we have sun.. and sometimes we have not but it’s nice.
I’m excited for my trip because about a little bit more than 2weeks I’ll leave and I hope that those days will bring something good.
Life is great and I’m happy.

Tien ♥.

Little Black Bird.

Some months ago I found a little black bird in our shed.. somehow it flew in there and was stuck.
One wing was injured.. I think the bird had a rough time with our neighbours cat..
So I gave it food and tried my best to heal that wing..
I thought it was amazing that after a while the bird wasn’t scared of me.
After a little bit more than a week the bird could use his wings properly again and I let it fly away..
Since that day I threw everyday some bread in our yard.. mainly for that bird if it would ever come back..
So I did that same thing today while I was eating breakfast in our yard and one little black bird came and ate the bread…
I threw the bread closer and closer to me, the bird kept comming closer and closer..
The bird wasn’t scared.. almost as it was used to that bread, our yard and used to me..
Once I held the bird in my hands I knew it was the same bird I found in our shed some months ago..
I think it’s pretty cool how animals can get used to people and be their friends..
And if I could choose what animal I’d want to be..
It would definitely be a bird, one free bird..
Spreading my wings and flying to wherever my wings would bring me.
Something we truly can call freedom.

Tien ♥.

Serial killers, new adictions and flying carpets.

I cannot believe how people can have such amazingly weird brain twists.. that it’s almost extremely crazy to think about such things.. anyway.. here we gooooooooooo:  
Yesterday I was watching this ducumentairy on Discovery Channel it was about cannibalism and doing EVERYTHING possible to get what you need.. or what you THINK you need. Now starts my story about this young lad named Armin Meiwes born in Germany 1961, His life was more lived by his mother then it was by him.. when he was a little boy she let him wear outfits that boys used to wear in the 20’s:

 And she makes him do all these aweful chores, she also controls his life, example she goes with him whenever he has a date with a girl. At a young age Armin Meiwes playes with dolls and pulls them apart and then, then he roasts them till they all melt away.. And then he became interessted in eating people.. As he grows up he still has that interesst and when his mother dies at the age of 30+ he becomes completely free.. then he becomes an internet addict and post adverts that he is looking for people (boys which who he can have sex and eat them after) that want to be eaten by him. In a chatroom he meets Bernd Brandes and he, he wants to be eaten by him. So when they finally meet they first try both to eat Brandes Penis but that was kind of imposibble because the meat was too raw, also cooking it didn’t help. Brandes was already too weakened from blood loss to actually eat any of his penis..  Meiwes apparently gave him large quantities alcohol, 30 sleeping pills, painkillers and he kissed him once and killed him in a room that he had built in his house for this purpose.. After stabbing Brandes to death in the throat he hung the body on a meathook and tore hunks of flesh from it; he even tried to grind the bones to use as flour.  Meiwes ate the body over the next 10 months, storing body parts in his freezer.. it was 20kg of flesh. Meiwes was arrested in December 2002, after a man called the police after seeing new advertisements for victims and details about the killing on the Internet. Investigators searched his home and found body parts and the videotaped killing. (He recorded everything)
This is just one example of what that documentary showed, they also showed people drinking blood.. but the main thing was they all thought in a way to be vampires..

I CANNOT belive.. that this actually is a true story, I really cannot believe.. And like Antony would sing (Antony & The Johnsons) It’s hard to believe that he is a child of God.
Well, New Adictions..
That would be labello, they are soooo cute and I already own tons of them in many colors! *woo* 

And after watching Aladdin, I actually have some things I really want.. which are:
– A magic carpet –
– To free the Genie –
– A hug from a tiger –
– 3Wishes –
– To mary my princess Jasmine –
– A monkey and a talking parot.. –
So.. If you have any of those things: lain_tien@hotmail.com

Tien. ♥

First post and alot of pages.

So here it is, the first post in this brand new blog by Lain and myself.

Let’s start with a tiny part about me.. =)
The world shouted ‘IT’S A GIRL on April the 19th 1989 at 4AM.
You can call me Tien or Tina, most people do now..
I am 19, I don’t feel 19, I don’t really feel like a number at all and I don’t know how you are suposed to act when you are 19.. And well.. I kind of do have a Peter Pan complex..

But basically I just try to do what I think that is a right thing to do.. like everybody else does I guess. I’m a nature person and I’d rather spend my days dancing through the trees in the forest.
 The cherryblossom tree or also known as Sakura-tree would be my favourite out of them all. I am a thinker, a philosopher, a dreamer, a writer, a reader, a musician and an artist. I play the piano for quite a long time and I used to play the guitar aswell.. I’m catching up my guitar-skills now *woo* . I love to read nice written poetry and good books. I got a new book today called ‘The Alchemist’ by Paulo Coelho. Lain told me a while ago to read that book but I was reading a 1184 pages long book then which I just finished.. The Alchemist has 140pages so I think I’ll finish that one soon.. I’ll tell you what I thought about it Lain!. =)
Anyway, music.. a well spoken subject in most of peoples lifes, I like oldies 70s-80s stuff.. PostPunk, Deathrock, Batcave, Goth, Oi!, Punk, Noise and eveything like that.. With Punk I do not mean emo-bands, I don’t like emo music!..
And this.. this would be me.

That’s all.. for now.
Tien ♥.